Looking Back on Today

Something funny happened today. I caught myself staring at the computer screen, having no clue what I was doing before. I snapped back into reality and blinked a couple of times. Soon my eyesight was focused again, it let the few seconds of uncertainty vanish. I read, Bangkok pt. 3 - Day 3. Exactly one year ago. Outside, a motorcycle was disturbing the night and I suddenly remembered why my mind drifted off.

Bangkok was a great adventure and I look back on every moment with a smile. Miss Ploy took me to a place called Winks, a rocky little bar hidden somewhere in Ratchayothin. On Sundays the three owners would walk on the stage and perform as the cover band Pennylane. That's where I rediscovered Don't Let Me Down by the Beatles (click). A good while ago my dear friend told me that Winks was shutting down. 

Things inevitably come to an end. I click the x on the right end of the tab and close it. Bangkok was a year ago, but when I switch off the ceiling light and let my computer screen be the only source of illumination, I can almost imagine being back in that rental apartment near Sutthisan Station. It was a nice place, very clean but lacking character. I spent so many hours reading and writing, listening to the thoughts in my head.

Suddenly someone outside is yelling something in perfect English. Right, I'm in London. I switch the lights on and observe my room. It feels strange, just a second ago I was back in Bangkok. I was going to call Ploy, ask if she'd like to meet for dinner. Now it feels like a story that I might've read in a book. I feel bad for having these thoughts, because it was real. Everything was real, I know that for a fact. 

But I'm worried that my time in London, this precise moment, might feel just as unreal when I think about it in a year. Who knows where I'm gonna be then. Sure, now I'm leaning towards Seoul, but who knows what's really going to happen. Then I'll probably be looking back at this post right here. I'll catch myself drifting off and snap back into reality, blink a couple of times and readjust my focus. I am here, right now.